School have been pretty ok so far.... although i am lost most of the time during my lectures and tutorials.... haha..... but that has always been the case for me.... and my new class is also pretty ok.... my new classmates are cool people..... and quite fun in a way..... but still there's this girl in class whom i really don dare to talk to or even look at..... and its all because of my friends who have been teasing me with her.... haha..... and most of the time they talk pretty loudly so i'm damn sure that she has heard a lot of those "conversations"..... haha..... she muz think that i'm some kind of a pervert..... man, its only the 4th week! haha..... yea, that's why i'm scared to face her..... i'm a coward..... haha.....

well, today the german club had this welcoming party for the new german club freshies.... it was really really cool..... the new people were really fun to be with and most of them were really into the games that we planned for them..... it was way cool..... also i felt that today most of the committee members really bonded with each other..... i could really feel that we were at ease in each others' presence..... selva is a cool dude...... well, he acts like one.... haha.... and weiwei is a damn funny person.... always making me laugh and making stupid jokes.... but still, i think the people who make the stupidest jokes are my good friends akil and beckham..... haha.... in this aspect, they're still the best.... yea!!!! haha..... they are morons, that's what they are!!! hehe.... then after the whole event rajam, jenny, selva, weiwei, karl and myself went to macs to sit down and chill out..... a lot of stuff bout each other were shared.... some stuff were really shocking when it was revealed.... some people were even stunned.... haha... it was so cool juz to be hanging out with this bunch of people..... and i treated them to the 25 cents ice cream from macs.... haha.... i know i'm a cheap skate lah but what can i do when my financial situation isn't that good.... but its the thought that counts right? haha.....

i'm confused now..... really confused..... what should i do.... should i go ahead and do it or should i juz let it go.... i've been thinking bout it for a while and i had decided to let it go..... but after today, i feel i should consider it again.... why is it so hard for me to make a decision..... the longer i take, the lower my chances are..... but i juz can't seem to make up my mind bout it..... i am so so indecisive..... in the past, i probably would have jump at the chance but now, after so many knocks, i'm finding it hard to take it...... i mean, there's no guarantee that i will get it..... i guess i'm juz afraid.... afraid of taking another knock..... i'm a coward..... a damn bloody coward, that's what i am..... maybe i should juz forget it...... but then again maybe i should give it a try....... argghh.... why am i so indecisive...... somebody please juz knock some sense into me..... sigh.....





Riz lost himself at 7/28/2004 10:20:00 pm

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